I am sitting here, just found out that my Aunt Susana passed away. She had been sick for a while, apparently no one told me. So my sister Proly had sent me a message. I have been walking around in circles here, very sad. I am so sad for my mom. This is her only sister, just like Proly and I.
All i can say is, i can’t imagine what my mom is going through right now, as i don’t even want to think about the possibility of ever losing my own sister.
See, just like Aunt Susie i have always been the one away from home. I had not seen her in years. I don’t even know her that much except through stories my mom told me about their childhood. She was always skinny, looked more like our grandpa, mom looked more like grandma. Something had happened and she moved and lived in Namanga Kenya, away from her family, and she truly didn’t move back home till this year i believe, and now she is gone.
Mom said they used to be very close when they were younger, but i guess when life throws you a curd-ball stuff happens and it is very easy to lose touch- but regardless of what happened, or the number of years that passed, they always knew they had each other. I used to watch mom run down the little dirt road to her mother’s house when my cousins would come to get her, to let her know Aunt Susie was visiting. I always use to go see her, i guess more so because mom always used to tell me, how i remind her of Susie.
Mom would say ” Yes you are almost flat chested just like your aunt Susie, you definitely need to shave your legs, just like your aunty Susie, etc ” Yet i really didn’t know her.
When i took the boys home in April, i heard she was home and had been for a while. I stopped there briefly to chat with her and Julian got to meet her. Eli was home with my mom. She truly reminded me of our late grandpa, she still had this infectious laugh and smile. She was still very shy. She really wanted me to make sure that i see my cousin Wanjiru ( her eldest daughter) before leaving. I was happy, i got to reconnect back with Wanjiru, it had been over 12 yrs since we last saw each other.
I know if you are reading this, you are probably thinking what the heck… Yes, sometimes life and family can be like that. People lose touch not with friends only, but even with family. I hope with me writing this, you will stop and look at your phone or some old photos of you , your family and friends and just reconnect with someone that was dear to you that you just lost touch.
I haven’t talked to mom yet, it’s a bit too early at home now…I am staying up so i can call her. I am sad for her. For all the years that slept by where she didn’t get to share with her sister. All the moments that you would want to laugh, scream with joy, or just cry on your sister’s shoulder. I wonder what is going through her mind right now. She has lost her mother, her father, and now her sister. I just want to give my mom a big hug and cry with her right now.
Losing a sister, or any loved one is hard…and plainly sucks!
Like my baby sister would put it ” God loved her more” - Very true.
She is in a better place where there is no more pain. God rest her soul in eternal peace!
I love you Aunt Susie!
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