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I actually had some sleep last night. Eli slept longer than i expected. He slept for 4 hrs straight. He woke up at 4 AM in pain, i gave him some Tylenol and finally slept around 5:45AM. We didn’t get up till about 8:45AM. So far one of my boys is fully medicated and sleeping. The other one is playing and jumping  around like an energizer bunny.  Yes, i baked him a  lemon cake this morning..i think i gave him more than i intended to. That sugar has kicked in pretty good.

I cleaned up a bit, and still have more to do, but i am waiting on Shil to get back so i can go get my cleaning supplies. I am out of cleaning bleach. Given that i have a sick one around, i am going to get on my hands and knees and hopefully get to fully clean my place.

You would think because i got some sleep i won’t feel tired, but i am. I have Julian’s CD’s on so that music is making me feel so sleepy. I think Eli likes it. He acts like he is going to get up then i guess hears the music and falls back asleep. I haven’t talked to my mom this week…I miss her a lot.  A 30 year old woman here, but i still need my mother every once in a while. I feel like no matter what i am going through, good or bad, when i talk to my mom  she makes everything better. Sometimes all she does is just listen as i gab and most of the time that is all that i need and then i feel better.

I am smiling to myself now as i can hear my husbands voice in my head.. call your father, you really need to talk to your dad sophia. You know i know my dad misses me too, but i don’t think he does as much as my mom, lol.  My husband always reminds me to call my father because he is a dad now, and must imagine when the boys grow up and have moved across the country leading their lives, he must fear that they won’t call often  to check up on him either.

You really have to understand though African fathers can be strict. I grew up fearing my father.  Everyone in the family would make me go ask dad for things, i would reharse over and over what i would say to him back then…and funny though , he always said yes. I never understood why my brothers never went to talk to him themselves.  They always said you are the girl he will never say no to you. lol. What a silly concept.  He is a great father though…As i grew older, i begun to understand him more. Despite his flaws he was a good father. He made us what we are today, we learned from him, learned to sieve what to take with us and what to avoid so we don’t  make some of the mistakes he did. At least i know i have …so far. So when i do call dad.. The conversation is usually shorter compared to mom. He asks about the boys, about my husband, checks on my progress lifewise… then he asks whether i need anything.  I guess That is enough, and at least he is there for me and my family.  I can always tell though that he is proud, so it is a good thing..for me.

Time to go feed Eli..

Have a good weekend

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