Last night, I got home from work around 11:20PM, Eli was sleeping and so was Julian. Daddy said he slept about 2hrs straight after i left around  530pm yesterday. I only worked half day since i had to take him to the Dr earlier.  I washed my hands then walked over to his pack n play set in the living room…I could smell that amoxicillin on him when i leaned over to rub his hair.  He heard me talking and raised his head  and opened his eyes. He saw me and that was it. He woke up.

I picked him up and layed him on my shoulder, rubbed his little back  and he fell back asleep. I lay him on his glider so i could watch him, plus it is inclined so he is not laying flat. I went to change and came back he was up then. I nursed him and he fell back asleep.  I changed his wet diaper and yes, i could smell that antibiotic too… man it is strong. He woke up after an hour and he was pretty fussy, i coud tell he was in pain. I rocked him back to sleep. He woke up after another 30min and we did same thing. I had about 2hours of sleep total last night.

6:40AM Julian wakes up and comes to jump in our bed, by then Eli was on our bed too, talking a storm. Julian comes and kisses Eli on the cheek, then on the forehead then on the mouth. Eli gets super excited to see Julian. He is kicking his little feet up and his arms are going all over the place and smiles at him. We lay there for about 5min then Julian says mama come on, wake up. I want ‘oatmilk’  for  oatmeal I tell him, ask daddy to go make it… then he says Noo, i want mama  make it… So i wake up.

I put Eli on his rocker and get Julian’s oatmeal.  He screams, heeeelp, mama heeeelp… Ok he is trying to get his foam letters from this huge jar (used to be for animal crackers) that we store the letters in.  I empty them from the jar  and he sits there on the floor and asks me to join him. We sit on the floor , he is eating his oatmeal and he is building some words that he learned yesterday. Today he spelled out dragon,  machine, school, then i always make him spell out his  first and last name, then Eli’s. I am soo tired and sleepy at this point. He goes on spelling more words on the floor. Daddy walks in the room and he tells me to go back to sleep he’s got it. Eli is rubbing his eyes, sleepy too.. as it was a long night.

I pump milk and get about 7oz. I put 4oz in his bottle and hands it to daddy then the rest i put in the fridge for later.  Daddy picks up Eli and Julian sits across from them, and i go back to bed. It was good to get that 2 hr morning nap. I woke up same time Eli woke up. We get to play with Julian a nd Eli, but Julian runs off and play on his computer. I clear out the dishes in the sink and make sure they have enough for lunch and then it is almost time for me to start getting ready for work. 

By the time i left home both boys were in bed taking their naps. Julian was not quite asleep yet, i could hear him arguing with his dad over what book he wants daddy to read. I kiss them goodbye and sneak off. I am glad though , Eli is at least sleeping it off.  It is a good sign, this is the road to recovery, or so i hope.

Before having kids, really i don’t think i understood what parenthood is all about. It is every minute, every second of every day. You carry your children with you everywhere you go. You are constantly thinking about them, thinking of ways to make their lives better…You worry about them, you pray for them more than you pray for yourself.  You cry when they are in pain, you laugh when they laugh.. and no matter how bad things are, no matter how busy work and life gets, when you see your kids and see their innocence and  their little smiles,  that very second all your worries and stress are out the window. gone. That second you are mom. You are dad and to them, you are bigger than life. You could make everything ok for them.

So again, hug your little ones and kiss them, and tell them how much you love them every day.

Kids make us wiser and better every day!

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